why life is really sucks

what else can i do, i always do what i want.
yeach, not only me. but everybody do only and if only they want it.
life is too selfish.
when am alone, didn't know what to do.
i feel bored. tried to contact all my friends, but nobody is home.
they are hanging out wiv their fam. all i try to do is for my self.
to erase the emptiness, to cure my pain.
ah why i don't just do the same, hanging out all the day.
but one think good about me, :) i realize that life does need compromise,
i said this many times, for myself.
me, only think of myself, only wanna make myself happy.
yes, i am too selfish, too much thinking about my future.
i want this, i want that. i have too many wish.
i never *really* care about other.
yeach, what in my mind is just what's fun, what's interesting for me.
why i have to care about other? what's the f*ck, it's their life. some say they have their own karma.
i don't give a dang on it. really, life is too selfish for me, and for everyone.
whose life is not selfish? i can mention a word, god, is. only if he exist. am not agnostic.
from the story i heard about him, i know he is not selfish. hey this is not religious talk.
am not going to talk about god, yeach had to write it in uppercase,
but he won't curse me for wrong spelling.
human being are too selfish, they only think about themself, and i am one of them.
i don't even talk to people around me, people who's sitting next to me in train. in plane.
people to help to buy something, people who are in the same elevator. people next to my office.
so many i couldn't mention. if i talk to them, or smile to them, they get mixed up,
who is him, why he smile at me. or may be they think am crazy?
but some people help the accident victim. contribute their blood. help the poor.
are they ready to sacrifice their life? for somebody that they don't even know. ow no, i think no,
my life is too worthed to be given to other. that would be in their mind.
i am not idealistic to verbalize this thing. i don't mean it. the point is, how much can we sacrifice ours to help other?
i am not ready to sacrifice my life for other. why i have to?
i can say, nobody is ready until the situation came, they have to face it.
if somebody will, it's only for their beloved one. that's also selfish, from my point.
me, am not ready, and i never be ready. i only can say love, i don't know how to love.
and i also don't know how much i can love someone. love is never enough.
if i love someone, i wanna make them happy, i wanna make them laugh, that's also selfish.
what if they don't laugh, what if they are not happy.
i didn't blame anyone, i won't blame anyone.
who did all this selfish things?
i know who is him.
he is the god.
yeach god does create lifes. god create human. my mom gave me birth.
eh i don't really have a mom, she is human in literal, else she is beast.
she's animal. she left us. "she won't even be in my funeral"
i like this word, from *eminem* but am not the biggest fan.
back to the god. why he creates a human that is so selfish.
ouw, don't think about that god. i am talking about another god.
a new god created by human.
it wasn't a god.
but now it's god. specification may vary in different country, but now it's god.
what's this god, who create him.
i don't who made this new god, i don't wanna know. i can only blame him to make human so selfish
but human create "Him"
he is so friendly, he gave us so much fun, he can gave us happiness, but he can be very very destructive.
he can help my friends, he can help everybody, he is here, he is there, he is everywhere.
but he is not my god. may be sometime, but most of the time he is not.

yeach correct me if i'm wrong
ah, who is the new god?